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Saturday, September 23, 2006


I'm feeling _____, a feeling which words cant describe. Not happy, not sad, I dont know what.

I was dreaming about the past, and my heart was beating fast.
I began to lose control, I began to lose contol.
I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm sorry that I made you cry.
I didn't mean to hurt you, I'm just a jealous guy.
I was feeling so insecure, you might not love me anymore.
I was shivering inside, I was shivering inside.
I was trying to catch your eyes, thought you were trying to hide.
I was swallowing my pain, I was swalowing my pain.
-Jealous guy

It's tearing up my heart when I'm with you.
But when we re apart, I feel it too.
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain with or without you.
Baby, I dont understand just why we cant be lovers.
Things are getting out of hand, trying too much but baby we cant win.
Let it go.
If you want me girl, let me know.
I'm down on my knees, I cant take it anymore.

Baby, dont misunderstand what I'm trying to tell you.
In the corner of my mind, baby, it feels like we are running out of time.

Let it go.
If you want me girl, let me know.
I am down on my knees, I cant take it anymore.
And no matter what I do, I feel the pain with or without you.
-It's hurting my heart.

I guess, that's all for today? :) Yeah.

Lesson learnt for today:
Faking a sm:)e is never as easy as ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ. (:

I still thank God for today! (:

Getting ready for church, soon! (: It's praise and worship today. So be happy, Qinyi! (:

/Edited. (:

Praise and Worship was fabulous, however I feel as though I've drifted far far away from Him. ): Yeah. I'm not taking my offerings seriously, sry Lord. My prayers seem to be short, as though I dont wish to talk to Him. ): I feel so so so bad. ): Why? Why? I dont want to drift away from You, Lord. ): Help me.

I seem to have grown, yet I've not. ): I've grown mentally, but not in Christ. I'm like, living for myself, and not Him. Everything I've done, or am doing are like, done by myself, without the help of God. ): But I know, it's not me who've done all these things. It's God, He's the one. Even though I turned my back on Him, yet He was there for me, whenever I needed Him. He's just so great. (:

Dinner was great! (: Thanks, guys! (: <3


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